The anxiety has boiled over. Friday I hardly ate.Saturday I couldn’t stand the dogs. Every little thing they did annoyed me. Poor dogs. Yesterday was sensory overload. The noise. And smells. And my clothes. And breathing. Today
I wanna talk about something. . .you know, like I do. . .something about cancer that is rarely talked about among fellow patients, as education for the newly diagnosed, within caregiver groups, and that
How does somewhere so crowded feel solonely?And how does a place with standing room only feel soempty? How is it that even on common ground very little iscommon?And how is it that even in shared experiences very little
Stormy. Malevolent clouds loom, threatening devour.Fragile. Cracked glass on the verge of shatter.Sharp. A porcupine defense against attack.Combative. Landmines active and set.Restless. Electric zzap snapp pop.This. This is trauma survived.The triggers, known and unknown.Lymbic. Primitive.
The last week of August is such an emotionally wretched wrecking week. Biopsy, diagnosis, breast MRI, meeting surgeons… there were so many appointments in such a short span of days. The storm whipping around
Some days just have a bite to them. August 25th mauls me…every year. The heaviness of the day, the memories, the pit in my stomach, the ‘off-ness’ invading every second of every minute of every
It was like any other Tuesday –Routine. Work. Long day. Going to pick up my kid from softball practice. Plans for dinner when we get home. Except what was different –Friday is looming. Denial
Oh August 7. You are a hard day. I find myself a little lofty today…like, floaty sort of. Triggered for sure. Think of an old Tom & Jerry cartoon…Jerry, a slight cheese smell wafting
One of the things that has thrown me most off with cancer is the body trauma. Of course, I shouldn’t be surprised, but before this was my story I always thought of cancer more
And the theme of March will be grace. Grace upon grace. grace [ greys ] noun. moral strength. Survivorship is not a place free from sadness. And to think otherwise (whether you’re the one surviving or you’re