Today I’ve loved my job. In general, it’s an easy job to like…it checks so many important boxes and those boxes help keep me in a grateful perspective on the days where I feel unsettled or antsy, discontent and small…but today I’ve found myself often thinking, ‘I’m thriving here.’

Cancer changed everything about me. I’ve said it, quite literally, 1010 times. It’s changed the way I define success and comfort. It’s changed how I measure my capacity and margin. It’s changed how I manage time and expectations. It’s changed how I place value and what I place value on. And because of these transformative changes, I needed to make change to live changed. It’s not to say counseling isn’t still my heart…it is; as is life coaching…meeting people right where they are and loving them with delight and empathy, helping them define progress and live on purpose. But the very intentional decision I made a year and a half ago, to take a break from the crisis counseling work I fell in love with doing and had been doing for 10 years (as hard as that still is), has very much purposed my cancer’s changes. And today I felt especially reflective of how there is much to love about this work, as different as it is. 

What have you loved today?

Today I…
Sunday: Learned
Monday: Chose; said yes/no to
Tuesday: Loved
Wednesday: Prayed
Thursday: Was challenged by/to
Friday: Am grateful for
Saturday: Saw grace in

*Post 1010

5.3 :: 1/5/18 :: Post 128

Today was hard. And I don’t have much energy to write…I don’t have much energy to stay awake, for that matter. 

The meeting with the Radiation Oncologist felt overwhelming. Yet another new normal that will require adjustment. And I left that appointment feeling the permanence of cancer………..

I’m sad. 

And I hurt. All over. 

But :: 1/5/19 :: Post 480

I’m hurting. But I am grateful. 

I’m angry. But I am grateful. 

I’m weary. But I am grateful. 

I’m impatient. But I am grateful. 

I’m disappointed. But I am grateful. 

But I am grateful. 

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