“I bent until I damn near broke. But that’s the thing about resilience…It shows up just as your soul begins to cry and catapults your strength into over-drive.”
Alfa
This Day in 2018:
15 of 18
15 of 18 today. Here was my social media post for the day:
I sit here reflecting on the past month and what lies ahead. I’d like to wrap myself and my family up in figurative and literal bubble wrap… Surgeries. Emotional upheavals. A basement that needs significant repair. Going back to work. A long road of surgeries ahead. Dogs bitten by a rattlesnake. Gearing up for my oldest baby getting her Driver’s License. School and all that craziness to begin soon. All this in light of where we’ve walked is hard to wrap my head around. We. Are. Exhausted.
Yet thankful to be here and one step closer to the end of infusion treatments. And thankful we’ve all survived being blown up by freight train after freight train. Lord, give us strength for the next 5 minutes. And the 5 minutes after that.
Three chemo infusions left. Whoa.
How far we’ve come…….
(Oh, and today, I got a random, from-a-complete-stranger compliment on my hair. As I was walking by, they said, “oh, cute hair!” It’s the little things….)
This Day in 2019:
The Same Lake
I sat by the same little lake today that I sat by two July’s ago….
It’s this sweet little lake in the middle of the hand of Michigan, the same little lake that Chris grew up coming to and making memories at with his family, the same little lake we’ve come to year after year to make a new generation of family memories.
…It was the same two July’s ago that I knew something was wrong but desperately wished it away, the same July that I couldn’t imagine actually having the worst-case-scenario become a reality, the same July that I kept thinking, “no, it couldn’t possibly be cancer, that’s not going to be my story.”
And here we are. Back at this little lake in the middle of the hand of Michigan. With cancer very much a part of our story.
I sit here today a different person, broken, put back together and completely transformed…and grateful I’m here to get to continue making memories.
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