“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” 

RUMI

Oh, how true this is of my life. Oh, how I deeply value this sentiment. And oh how grateful I am for it.

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This Day in 2018:

Horrendously Beautiful

Back in March, I spent some time listing out all of the different appointments I’d had up to that point. Today, I took some time to bring that list up-to-date. 

140 appointments.

O n e.H u n d r e d.A n d.F o r t y.A p p o i n t m e n t s.

In those 140 appointments, I have interacted with 160 DIFFERENT people who have cared for me in one capacity or another….and this doesn’t include family and friends that have cared for me along the way….

O n e.H u n d r e d.A n d.S i x t y.D i f f e r e n t.P e o p l e.

That’s insane.

This is all in just less than a year’s time. August 7 of 2017 was my first appointment…as I approach that year mark of the beginning of this cancer hell, I am astonished at where we’ve walked….what depths we’ve traversed…what anguish we’ve suffered…what experiences we’ve endured…what intensity of emotions we’ve had…what immense gratitude we’ve felt…what horrendously beautiful story we’ve participated in…

…and it continues.

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This Day in 2019:

Surviving

It is hard living changed. It is difficult to choose transformation. …Old habits die hard.

I’ve said it before, but I think surviving cancer is actually the hardest thing I’ve had to do or experience in my life. Not just battle it, but live it and survive it and live different because of it. 

Certainly, the hardest. 

No doubt, the richest. 

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No post for 7/22/20

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